I shook his hand and waved him goodnight. It wasn't that bad., I did have a little fun. But it wasn't the point, I was glad that I got rid of him and I was happy that he won't ever come into our lives anymore. I ran to the elevator and by the time I got to the top, I quickly ran into Max's apartment and slowly opened his room and saw that he was still asleep. I feel really guilty that I didn't tell him about what happened a moment ago. I wanted to say sorry in an indirect way by sleeping next to him and spend the most amazing day with him later on. As I lay next to him, I noticed that it was 4 in the morning and I was still awake. I was thinking about what might happen if he realize that Carlos isn't there to go into our lives. I'm afraid he might ask if I knew something about it. I felt him shuffle about, and he woke up smiling next to me.
"Hey! you woke up early", as he rose up from the bed. "uhh.. well I didn't sleep well actually, I stayed up instead", I replied. I felt that burning feeling in the pit of my stomach and I did want to slap myself until my face turns red. He scooted next to me and let me lay on his shoulder. "Is something wrong?", He asked. I looked at his face, smiling and all, I didn't want to ruin that perfect smile. "I'm just thinking about the rooms thats all and how to fix it. It's got me thinking about everything you know. Us girls love decorating", I replied with a good answer to keep him nosing in on what happened last night. He chuckled and rubbed both of my shoulders together and calmed me down. "Don't worry that's why I'm here", He answered.
I told Max that I had to rest and all, so he took a shower and I slept on his bed.
As I closed my eyes, I started to dream. It wasn't really that bad until Carlos ended up being there. "Why are you with him? Don't you want to be with me?", He questioned. I couldn't talk. My mouth couldn't open since it felt like it was stitched. I touched my lips and both were sealed shut but they don't have marks on them. Nothing. I tried telling myself to walk up but I couldn't, I started to cry and begging to me to wake up and stop having this nightmare. I felt someone shaking my shoulders. Then... I woke up. My body lift itself up and I quickly hugged Max. "Hey hey hey, what's wrong?", worrying about me with that tone.
I was panting and my heart was beating fast. I was crying in front of him for the first time. "I have to tell you something", I said to him. "You might want to let go of me right now cause this is important and I know you'd get angry and upset at me", I warned him. He looked at me and he face was very clam. "What is it?", he asked. "Well, I went out with Carlos last night and it was important because he promised to stay away from me, from us. And I know you're angry at me but I just did it to make us feel safer and better", I grabbed both of his hands and looked into his eyes. He looked extremely clam. He took a deep breath and looked at me. "I know", He said. "When you were about to come up to the apartment, Carlos called me and told me everything and he said that he won't bother us again after what you've done and I WAS mad at him for asking you without my concern but now I'm not cause he's not here anymore and YOU made that happen", as he put both of his hands on my face and made me stare to his beautiful green eyes, "I thank you so much though I am a little upset that you didn't tell me earlier, but it's okay", I smiled. "So, you're really not mad? I just feel so guilty and I don't want to feel this way ever, help me make it go away", I asked him. "Uhh..Okay how about this, You buy me Pizza and we'll both feel better and I'm hungry, what about that?", He offered and I nodded.
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